04.15.06
The real Project Work
When I saw the project work statistics on Thursday, I was shocked. Our school had only 16% of students who got band 1 or 2, while the national average was 76%. This means that we officially have the lowest, most extreme percentage of band 1 and band 2 scorers in the whole nation, in other words, everyone else had at least 80%. My first thought about this was “God, don’t let it be me…” Guess what? My whole class got 3. We all got hit by it.
During our outing yesterday, we talked about it. Wei Ling, Mandy, Elsa and I laid out all the facts. Our conclusion? The teachers didn’t know what they were doing when they were teaching us, and only the ones who knew had classes where noone had 3s. Now this got me pretty upset. The devil probably enjoyed this a lot. He would have had no trouble putting more and more thoughts in our minds because we didn’t bother to stop them.
God never forsake us though. He reminded me that the past is over, the future is in His hands, so why worry? On our way home on Thursday, Mandy and I even agreed not to talk about it anymore. But when I got home and saw the posts on the school forum, I was at it again. The more I typed, the angrier I got. It was only when we finally decided to enjoy ourselves during the outing did we stop. As soon as we sat down for dinner, however, we started again.
Now that I thought about it, I realised how silly I was. Our conversation went like “Thank God this won’t affect our future because it’s in His hands.” “Amen.” *Pause* “BUT I still can’t believe….” In fact God spoke to me too. He told me that this just gave us one less opportunity to rely less on ourselves and more on Him! Was that a revealation! But we still continued ranting.
It wasn’t after a whole bunch of posting on the MLG did I suddenly stop and thought about it. That’s when God asked me, “What are you trying to achieve from all this?” Then I realised that I was indeed being affected by this greatly, seeing what God has for me in this situation only in my mind and not in my heart. If I really believe that God has been to my future and declared that it was Good, I wouldn’t have gone to find more reasons to be upset about. Oh, thank God for the Holy Spirit. As I was posting my last post there, I said to myself, what they need aren’t more reasons to be upset. Maybe we can really learn through this situation. It’s time to get rid of the negative things from this incident and let God teach us.
After all, the challenges in our lives all have redeeming qualities, and God restores much more than what we have lost. It is through these challenges that we learn and built character… Praise the Lord.